Work and motherhood is a balance blah blah blah blah.
Bullshit.
You can't be the mother you want to be and be the business woman you want to be. It's too wide of a straddle. One foot on the boat, one on the dock.
It's uncomfortable, it's imperfect. It's my life.
Sometimes I think I suck at both. That's just a thought. Sometimes I think I rock at both, that's just a thought.
But, I will never be the 100% mother. I'll always love my work. And I'll never be 100% business woman. I'll always love my family. It crushes my soul and inspires me simultaneously. I day dream about the lecture circuit, the amazing endeavors I would take on sans kids, how successful I know I could be, how powerful. And then I look at their faces while they sleep and I know a night away from them when they are this small is not for me.
It is about choice. And the flip side of choice is sacrifice. And we grieve the loss of the beautiful virgin on the altar.
But we celebrate her life and the rains the sacrifice brought.
This will always be my story. The straddle. The never-quite-one-thing. The half mom and half business person. The half hippy and half yuppie.
The sacrifice, the balance, the choice, the surrender.
But always starting here, with me. With the truth, with brave honesty, authenticity and growing experience.
Do you want to show up with the same? Do you want to balance and straddle and bend and sacrifice and grow and learn and leap? Work with me, and let's figure out how you can be the best you. I'll continue to show up here so you can learn a little bit about my story too.
